Sleep Is For The Weak.

In the book of life it must be written that while in high school you aren't going to sleep. At all. I am constantly exhausted. Waking up at 7 in the morning does not work for me. The best is when I get to go to work at four, leaving me a half hour in between school and work, not get home till after eleven, and have to still do homework. That's always awesome. That's what I did yesterday and got to do again today. Woo! I can't complain though. At least I'm getting an education and I have a job. I've only got a couple more months then I'm out of school and into the real world. I like to pretend that that doesn't scare me. It doesn't. It terrifies me. I don't even know where to begin being an adult. The fact that next November I get to vote in the presidential election means I need to figure things out and become an adult. I'm not ready to grow up. I'm trying to take on as much responsibility as I can right now to prepare myself. I've discovered I don't like responsibility. At all. Yeah I'm excited to graduate and move on from this hell hole. But I don't know where to go, or even where to begin. I thought I had everything in my figured out. What I want to do with my life, where I want to live, all that kind of stuff. Now I have a completely different dream and it kinda scares me. It's a lot more risky. My whole life I have wanted to get a degree in something, it didn't matter what, get married, and have kids and be a stay at home mom. Now I don't even want to get married. I know what I want to go into as a career, I know where I want to live first, but then I have no clue. I want to move all over the world. Not settle down until I'm at least 30. I'm scared that if I travel around the world first and try to settle down later I won't ever find someone. But I'm scared if I settle down right away he'll be the wrong person or I'll regret not seeing the world like I want to. Life is full of hard decisions. Hopefully I make the right choice. I won't know till later. That's how life is, right?