Regret

'Never regret something that once made you happy.'
This is one of the many quotes I live by. My question is am I aloud to regret loosing something that made me happy? Because right now, tonight, loosing that someone, the person who made me the happiest I've ever been, is my biggest regret. It happened almost a year ago but I still think about it all the time. I wonder what I could have done differently, if I said something, if I would have fought for him, would I still have him? He is still the cutest, sweetest, most caring, funniest guy I have ever met. He changed my life in so many ways. I miss him more than anything every day. I have missed him since the day I let him walk away. I was just so done fighting. Not fighting for him, which in retrospect, I should have done. But I was done fight with him. Done trying to make things perfect. When, if I would have stopped nagging, stopped trying so hard, things would have been perfect because I would have been with him. I still remember the first time I met him, I remember the moment I fell in love with him, I remember the joy I felt when he told me he loved me, and I will always remember the pain I felt as he said goodbye. I will never forget the things I should have done differently. The things I should have said or done but never did. I don't just miss him, I miss who I was when I was with him. I miss our adventures, how easy it was to be happy when he was around. I honestly hate that I still think about him. That he still has this affect on me. But I'm getting past it. I learned so many lessons from the things we went through. I will always love him and I will never regret the things we went through. I will, have, moved on. Love is such a complicated thing. For most people it comes with regrets, my only regret, letting it go. Fate will bring us back together if that's what's supposed to be. But honestly, its just another chapter of my life. Another page turned to a blank page. The next chapter may be better, it may not, no body really knows. But I will make the best of it. Either way. <3