Getting Older.

Today I'm applying for college. I hate to admit it but I'm scared to death. Being on my own scares me. I've always wanted to grow up, move out, and be independent but now that its actually happening I'm freaked out. I'm too young for this. I shouldn't be looking at apartments, buying toasters, stressing over money, applying for college, everything! I'm 17 years old. I'm too young for this. I finally found out I'm almost on track to graduate. Even the idea of graduating scares me but I'm so ready to be done that graduation couldn't come soon enough. The worst part about this whole moving out thing is that my parents are thinking about selling our house when I move. I don't like the idea of going home for the weekend to a house I've never been in. That isn't home. I grew up in this house. I have so many memories here. I love our house. I love my memories. This is the house I wanted to be able to call grandma's house. I want my kids to be able to make memories here too. I never thought growing up would terrify me. But now that it's actually happening, it does.